Archive for June, 2004
June 27, 2004 at 6:40 pm · Filed under Uncategorized
feeling like shit today….
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haiz kept having those negative tots all day.
lao ban never call but will pray for her. As she has AGM today
hmm wonder how the other bro and sis are doing.
part 2 of the day.
dad ask me go JL expo sale but i rejected the offer.
i am pretty broke already and i dont forsee me wearing any new clothes at the moment coz i am really down with my mood. my back is aching also… this tot just came up so suddenly. Should i tell my dad first or my mum first..
June 25, 2004 at 8:33 am · Filed under Uncategorized
my big brother knows. actually he was very understanding abt it. I was scared he will be the first one to give me a scolding cause he is the one that is always in charge of the family since my father move to China for work. I really thank him for talking to me about it. He is always that someone that I admire. A great brother. He met with lots of setback and he is quickly crawling back into his life. I wish him well and also hope he can settle down with his gf and lighten the load on mum worries and i wish him all the happiness he can find in work and play. As for me, I just have to wait till I make an effort to find that partner and also for that time that give me more faith and strength to overcome my current situation. As I told lao ban. I need time to settle down and also actually show mum why I change my belief and give her an understanding that through Christianaty change me.
I have been a stuff bottle that exploded since my 4 years studies in Perth. 4 year away from home. 4 years I keep all my feelings all bottle up. Dad has his setback. I try to avoid going out. and hang on in there till i graduated. avoided most of my friends at that time. They must have tot that i always give the excuse of having no money. I was fustrated with myself. Why had I chose this road of mine. Why I bottle up my feelings. now that i found work. mum still worries abt my health. I hope that someday i can find that someone so she can at least put the worries down. I dont know how to tell her now. I know if i tell her now. Alot of things will happen in the family which i dont want. As I have not been a good son since I came back from perth. I always quarrel with my mum. which i dont do in the past. I dont even spend quality time at home now and she always thinks that i am avoiding her. I just want and hope that person will change not for me but for god although we are going different path now. I wish her well.
June 20, 2004 at 9:35 am · Filed under Uncategorized
some one ended not coming due to urgent matters.
flip into papers today only to know that my cousin was in “life” with his wife and children. sadly although it is a gift from god but I belive that one day god will take away the suffering of all.
June 12, 2004 at 8:37 am · Filed under Uncategorized
answer the call! open your heart someone did. the msg got through. but this time as a fren. hopefully something will come out of both our mouth beside the beef noodles. I just want to know how the person is doing and what is e plan. and i do really wish the person happiness down the road even if we drift apart.
June 11, 2004 at 7:26 am · Filed under Uncategorized
it takes time to heal the pain i guess but i hope it will be a release of pain.
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