Archive for July, 2004
July 31, 2004 at 8:35 am · Filed under Uncategorized
I closed my eyes then I let the holy spirit took over and this was what i saw in someone’s profile at the very end.
“Christ is also my Saviour and my Lord !! My family and Christ are my moral supporters all these while, 5 cheers for them!! =D”
Basically I have many encounters already and I cant deny it. My life has change. I tried to be better just that my time is not ripe where i can balance work, spiritual life and also physical life. I hope that in near future, I can have time for everything I like to do and really sit down with all of those who are near me to actually pour out my feelings. Till then I guess.
July 30, 2004 at 8:25 am · Filed under Uncategorized
my whole family knows abt it. only my bigger bro who says go with my heart. but the resistance is from my dad, mum and younger brother. It just how they view christianity in a different way. they view it as a cult… I am sick how mum always put me off and i will straight away not talk to her. when I told her i have only 500 in my bank. she never even tot of that I need to eat, take bus, and cover all the current bills of insurance, handphone and also internet. and also the allowance I give to her which leave me not much and she expect me to save 500… actually after all those.. this and tat misc stuff, I am more or less down with 300-400 myself. another cold war…. If I go on Sunday. She will just boom…. I wonder why god has disallow me to go on Sunday…. -_- and this whole week was terrible to start with and will end pretty badly although yesterday msg was to think positive. now my mum even want me to go learn how to drive… if I do that. I dont think I will even have time to rest on Sunday.
my working hours now is 9.00am - 11.00 pm monday to friday. and 10 - 4 on saturday and after my whole days is not even there..sunday I will just rest and be ready for monday workload… why does everyone think my live revolves around making money… I am sick how money works. i now know why people have habit of spending theraphy. I am tired… and it not abt having christian friends and not mixing with normal frens…. it just that i dont want to go back to the days where it is just abt games and anime, even as I say this I dont even think I have the time to mix around to start off with especialy with the time I spend on work. to me I have already put that back into my back seat. what await is the walk with him.
give me a breather. I dont want anyone talking to me abt my faith. what has change has change and shall stays as that.
July 3, 2004 at 9:02 pm · Filed under Uncategorized
had enough of her suspision when someone call me.
she will look at me with those pair of eyes. -_-
cant she stop it.
it is getting on my nerve..
but i am treating as nothing…
but it is affecting my personal life. which i feel that i should control
and not be a puppet.
sigh.
July 2, 2004 at 8:12 am · Filed under Uncategorized
i felt uneasy i did not go for cg yesterday.. sigh..
mum is happy but i am pulling my hair inside my heart.
